about my dearest idiot

i’ve dreamt about you for 3 days in a row now and im waking up pissy
i hate your guts
and i can’t stand to see your face
yet you don’t fail to come across my mind
at least once a day
it’s becoming more and more annoying
i hope i see you this weekend
and that pisses me off to
i get all excited when you actually care to text me
and ask me if i’m in the area
and i get upset when you don’t
you little prick
i’m dating someone..
not for you, rather for myself
to teach myself that there are guys out in this world that are
a lot better than you
and that i can be happy with someone else because I WANT TO
funny thing is
he’s closer to you than you think.
Maybe that’s why i’m dating him, because he’s close to you :/ bloody shit
i hate my self for caring.
FUCK.

I have come to the conclusion ….

That I haven’t had a legit serious boy/girl friend since gustavo XD god damn that was like 2 years ago.shit haha.. The people whom I’ve dated since then were fun, I must admit I enjoyed dating.. But I think its about time for me to style down… So from here on out I’ll be on the look out for a relationship type of person.. No more idiots like dakota, samantha, remy, or ronnie haha.. Time for me to get serious for a bit.. ;p Or maybe I should wait to get serious til after high school.. Cause I might end up going to new york after what the chefs told me today tigers a 70 percent chance its a yes on that scholarship for the culinary institute of america in hyde park NY ;) Idk haha .. Meaningless rants…

since when did having sharp pointy hips become more attractive than having round curvy ones?

not only that but when you have sex with someone who has boney hips it HURTS !!

mister brainwash

the proof of how far posers can go and brain wash people into believing they’re real

amanda garcia

is a stupid dirty little whore.
yeah i said it & i don’t give a fuck.
i’ve sucked up a lot of bull shit talk coming from her mouth about me
and how bad
i supposely treated her
when i welcomed her into my home
introduced her to my parents
brothers
and by far my mom
put up with her constant nagging
and flirting with my guy friends
using them for their cars and money well you know what
im tired of it
hun.
you’re a slut
i know you come from a hard past well guess what so do i
and every fucker in this world
so stop whining
i say slut cause yeah you are one
youve cheated on all your boy friends a countless amount of times
youve flirted with my friends boyfriends
and have hooked upo with a countless amount of my friends
did i ever nag at you no.
you always cried about how everyone hates you you cant trust anyone
yet youre a fucking cheater
and you flirt with like 5 other guys while you have a boyfriend
and tell me not to tell
did you always cross the line with my boyfriends?
giving them your number and telling em to text you!
yes you did
telling everyone maria and i treated you like shit when we were the only people that would listen to you
we’d get in trouble for you at 1 in the morning just so you can stay over
yes mother fucker yes
did i ever get a thank you!? no
all i got was
your mouth talking shit about me and my friends
saying were bad people well you know what
up yours bitch.
okay im done for now.

and no i dont give a damn if you read this or some one tells you about this
i dont give a rats ass.

i LA LA LA love

that i’ve been getting all these gorgeous chicks
hitting on me at shows lately im on a 3 week roll
but honestly
no chick will top
that cutie from jersons show
man she was freaking adorable :)
im kinda shy to call the chick samantha i met after my show
dakota was kinda pissed that i accepted her number
in front of him xD

and of course there’s my only love
ephie ;D te he he he

I love how I rubbed off on my friends

they went from saying “that’s gay”
To “that’s lame..”
All because I would say it around them all the time and
Make a face when they used the word gay or fagg that way.
:)
Sweet

to my followers who take the time to go to my ask box &leave me things(:

yes even you anons.!!

you guys are awesome :3

everyone’s lagging it

in this band man.
:’|

so its august 19th

and i have pushed away every guy&girl who’s tried getting at me this whole summer. ;|
what now.? i have like 2 weeks to get me a good person in my arms. hmm
schools about to start.
hmm. this is marking officially that i am looking to settle for a relationship. nothing serious. just someone i could call mine. :)
its been a while haha. fuck it.
lol or i guess i’ll have a single senior year aye.
-__________- i’m an idiot

so i’m really confused, but i can only blame myself (blurb)

i’ve been talking to 3 guys and a chick one of em whom i’ve decided to stop seeing (dates) because i finally got to kiss him&it didn’t feel right, i kissed him again and nope, nothing there i couldn’t feel it, then when we actually sat and talked for a while i realized he was very immature& childish for an 18 year old and not even remotely my type especially music wise -_- he listens to what i listend to in the 6th grade man……so i slapped a friend sticker on his ass today. 2nd date.

this other guy whom i’ve been talking to on the phone older guy, whom i do like somewhat at least… we’ve got stuff in common, he’s smart, plays video games, nice taste in music,likes anime and has things going for him, job, housing, school…he’s clean too, straight edge…but from the looks&sounds of it he’s very very very clingy, i haven’t even gone out on a date with him and he’s already trying to call me on the phone every night to talk and gets really upset when i set him aside to be with friends….getting his panties all in a bunch.
i’m 80% sure that i’m going to slap a friend sticker on his ass if we do go on a date.

2nd to last this guy. the douche bag. that i keep thinking and dreaming about. the one who has been calling me up to hang out and ive been blowing him off because i didn’t want to get into anything with him because of his history with womyn. little man whore. But not to sound cliche he acts different towards and around me, he says i intimidate him… sigh. of course i actually want to be with him but i’m trying hard not to. no dates. just hang outs with a large group of friends where occasionally i’m left alone talking to him about the oddest things. Magnificant taste in music, fellow alcoholic and drug user. yes i know horrible man -_- i kissed him.once..and it was that kind of seductive kiss wear you just want to rip each others clothes off..hmm
i think i want to be with him because the other 2 come off to me as serious “boy friend” type, which i can sense immediately.
and this guy with his history of whory ness.. i can date for a month or so be sexually fullifilled without regrets and brake it off with out tied emotions.
I’m a hot mess right now

last but not least the untouchable girl. that i’ve got everything going for her i like her she likes me we want to be together, she’s sexy she’s beautiful quirky funny great taste and man her music is like my soul. But she wants a serious relationship. and i don’t want to tell her to wait for me very selfish. gone on many dates with her, known her for a long time, kissed her had a huge spark and i’m not afraid to go for it with her.. but she’s in college… i’m a high school girl, she parties with older kids at actual house parties, i party with older people at local gigs, she drinks mikes hard lemonade i drink king cobra 40oz’s. should i dive.? or should i mingle. -_-

i’m so frustrated with all of these i wana go hang out with my girlies this weekend and just say fuck all these ties lets just have a twat fest at some kick back and flirt with strangers we’ll never see after that night

sigh